FEARLESS

No mother wants to see their child hurt! Even if it seems so small, it hurts your heart to see them in pain. Last night, Mason cut his finger trying to grab a picture frame. The cut is a pretty deep cut and he would not stop bleeding!!! I was freaking out and wanted to cry. You may say I'm over dramatic, but his little finger was just bleeding away and nothing would make it come to an end. I knew he had hurt himself but didn't know what to do to help him. You always hear stories about first time parents taking their babies to the doctors for everything because they over analyze everything. This is very true! lol Kendall and I took Mason to patient first to get his finger looked at and all they did was clean it up and put a bandage on it. I figured it wasn't that deep, but at the time looking at that blood had me weak. Of course I had to drive since Kendall's leg is still healing and I was speeding down the street. When it comes to a mother's baby, you better not m...

After being out for three weeks, I am back at work. It has been a true struggle. I been waking up at 4 A.M, working 9 hours, taking care of Mason and Kendall, cooking and getting up in the middle of the night when Mason wakes up. Watching Mason gives me so much energy though. It's actually kind of weird. I be so sleepy and ready to pass out but Mason wakes me up completely. Lol He has so much joy and is ready to play as soon as he sees me walk through the door. lol I miss being at home with my boys but I gotta do what I gotta do. Balancing out your family and your career is hard but can be done. My family actually motivates me to keep on pushing. I am not a morning person at all, but I get up so early to beat traffic, get to work early so I can leave early to be with my family. Whatever I do, I do it for them. I want Mason to see that his mother is a strong and hardworking woman. Rather you believe it or not, someone is always watching you and I know for a fact that Mason is wa...

Godmothers are like second mothers to your child. They are there to step in when you need help, watch your child or children, give presents lol, take them out and raise them if something were to happen to you and family. Being someone's godmother is a lot of responsibility and takes a lot of love. To be a godmother, you have to be just as fearless as a mother. You may not birth the child, but you want to care for the child as if it was your own. Godmothers are taking on a great challenge and as a mother, it is important to choose the right person. Mason's godmother is My best friend since 6th grade, Rachel. Rachel is the longest friend I have. She is always there when I need her no matter when and where. Rachel is the most loyal person I know and she don't play games when it comes down to me. I know that I can trust her 100% for my child and she's the best person for the job! She is a God fearing Christian and doesn't get involved in any drama. She is all about her ...

So one day I went to church and the First Lady's mother came to me saying she heard that I was a great dancer. She then proceeded to ask me if I could dance on Easter Sunday. Knowing that I haven't danced in a while and how nervous I would be, I still accepted it. The song I had to dance to was called "Don't Cry" by Kirk Franklin. I love that song. Every time I hear it, I cry anyway. lol it's a powerful song. For those of you who do not know, it's a song letting you know that Jesus is alive. He died for me and you but He rose from the dead on the third day so there's no need to cry. Clearly the perfect song for Easter Sunday. From that day on, I started to listen to the song and make up my dance. Another challenge for me. I made up dances before, but once again, it's been so long ago. Once Kendall broke his leg, I didn't have the time to really continue practicing and creating the best dance that I could. Y'all, I literally finished makin...

Today I have been with Kendall for a total of three years and Mason turned seven months! It's crazy how life works y'all. I really feel like I have been with Kendall forever and feel like Mason was just born yesterday. I think it's wonderful how Kendall still wants to celebrate the day we started dating even though we are married now. Most guys can't remember the day they got with their girl but that's why I love Kendall. He doesn't forget and makes sure it's special every time. I have two anniversaries! lol Today as a family we went to get some sushi, got a movie and baked cookies. Nothing too big but it was just right. I can remember the day Kendall asked me to be his girlfriend. It was actually like 12 something Easter morning. We had some fun times while dating. People were so jealous lol but it just made our relationship even better and stronger. Nothing could break us. It's funny because I really believe that with all the challenges we had together...

My mother always taught me that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13). We would cite that scripture before going to school, playing sports, taking tests and anything else you can think of. Since I was a little girl, I knew that nothing could stop me from achieving my goals and dreams. My mother is a strong black woman and she only wanted the best for her kids like most mothers. Growing up, my mother pushed me everyday to make sure I was strong, successful, independent and the woman that God wants me to be. Every lecture she gave was so annoying at the time, lol but now I can see why she did it. When you want the best for your kids, your going to communicate with them, tell them what you went through and hope they don't do the same. My mother got up every single day with a smile on her face even when she was going through her personal pain. She put her own feelings and what she wanted to the side for my sister, brother and I. My mother kept it rea...

Yesterday was Mason's second birthday party and he had a blast! The best part was my mother holding him as they played musical chairs. Lol my mom looked crazy running around the chairs with a bunch of kids while holding a baby lol But Mason thought it was hilarious. He was apart of the party somehow. He wanted to be one of the big kids so bad. Lol As he watched the bigger kids play, run around and pull down balloons, he kept turning his body to see what was going on. It was when he kept trying to throw himself to the floor, I knew he was trying to be one of the big kids. lol It was a moment during the party he would not stop screaming when a kid ran past and then I realized he wanted to play with a balloon like the rest of them. lol I had to ask one of the little boys to share and give Mason one. Of course he was so excited to hit it and try to eat it. It's so interesting to see your child grow and want to get into more and more each day. Even today, Kendall and I sat outs...

So as I mentioned before, Kendall broke his ankle on March 20th. This is when I knew I had to step up and tend to my wifely duties. I'm not going to lie, when I first found out he broke his ankle and would need surgery, I was nervous. I would have to drop Mason off in the morning, go to work, pick Mason up, cater to Kendall, cook, clean, be the only one looking after Mason at home and then have to do it all over again everyday until his ankle got better. I had to take a moment and tell myself it was going to be okay and that I got this. This was my moment to really tackle my wifely duties. Luckily I was able to get paid leave from work for three weeks. So atleast I don't have to drop Mason off every morning. Every morning, I wake up, place Mason in front of his toys and the tv and fix Kendall's breakfast. Everyday I am catering to him and giving him everything he needs and helping him transition from one room to the next. On top of that, I have a baby that DOES NOT WANT TO ...

After giving birth some mothers go into depression. I can completely understand why someone would, but you shouldn't! People love to say your life is over after you have babies but it isn't. As a mother there is much more responsibility you have on your plate. Instead of taking care of just yourself, you have to care for a baby. If you get married, you have to take care of two babies lol But that does not mean you have to throw yourself away. God gave women these responsibilities because He knew we were strong enough to handle them. After a while, I kept looking at my stomach and kept talking about how fat I was and how I wish I didn't have stretch marks. I was tired and just wish I had my old body back. I had to remind myself that I JUST had a baby. lol I started to work out to get back in shape and to lose the weight I desired to lose. Plus my sister's wedding is coming up soooo I had to get on it lol Anyway, you make the time to do the things you want to do. I...

I love being a mother. For nine months I bonded with my son and finally got to see him and feel him. Every time I held him, I knew he knew who I was. The way his eyes lights up when he looks at me is so exciting. Like he realllly knows who I am! He was inside of me, sharing my body and now I can watch him grow everyday. The sleepless nights is all worth it. When people say you won't get any sleep, they are not lying! Mason Ray Blackston is now 6 months and he is so active! I can't believe he is already crawling and pulling himself up. It feels like I just bought him home from the hospital yesterday. It is so crazy to see how much they change by day. He went from this little skinny, long, white baby to a chubby, long, chocolate baby. lol I remember when all he did was sleep during the day and keep Kendall and I up all night. Lol I could stare at him all day. The moment he started to smile and try to talk, my heart just melted! It was the cutest thing. They slowly realize they ca...

February 1st was the day I found out I had to be more fearless than ever before. It was 19 days before my birthday when I found out that I was going to be a mommy! Now of course when I first found out I was a nervous reck! I just graduated college, Kendall and I weren't married, I had to tell my family, tell my pastor and I was only 23 years old. Allllll these thoughts were running through my head. Being raised in a Christian family, pregnant before marriage was not the ideal thing because sex before marriage is not the ideal thing. Lol But I can thank God for the man He placed in my life, the degree I earned and the good government job I already had. I started to realize that life is a blessing from God. There's no other way life can be created. It was Him who blessed me with a bundle of joy. It came to a point in time that I had to realize this baby was coming and it was time to be fearless and not worry about what people would say. Once again I thank God for the man He place...

2016 was a year of unexpected, happiness and greatness. I became a wife and a mother! A lot of people will say it's hard and it is! Lol But it's a great accomplishment, fun and exciting. I first met Kendall my junior year of college. I always thought he looked good from a far, but he looked even better up close. We were at an alpha event (fraternity he's apart of) and I told my friend Tierra that I was going to end up with him (jokingly but seriously lol) and she didn't believe me! But of course, ya girl got them digits that same night. Lol Well he got mine. Lol Anyway, since that day I knew he was the best man I have ever met and who I wanted to be with. "Talking" for two months, he finally asked me to be his girlfriend. (4/20) We saw each other everyday and talked every moment. And then he was hooked! Lol :) I always knew I deserved better, but it wasn't until Kendall came when I really saw better. He always made sure I felt loved, comfortable, wanted ...

Everyone knows that college is where your life begins! lol It's the first time really being away from your parents, joining organizations, meeting so many different people, finding long life friends, learning how to dress, finding yourself and of course furthering your education to set up a bright future for yourself. Attending Morgan State University was not my first choice; however that's where I ended up and I loved it. Being fearless is the ONLY way you will gain your full college experience. Outside of the clubbing, house parties, drinking, and being miss social butterfly, I got involved in a lot of things. For those who know me, track is my passion! I ran since I was 8 years old and I tried out for the track team at Morgan my freshman year and made it. My mother always told me I could do all things through Christ who strengthens me and that's what I live by. BUT no one told me that running track in college was like a job! Lol there were more things I wanted to do so I...

Hello Laidies! Just to give you a little background of myself... Birthdate: February 20,1993 POB: Princeton, New Jersey Raised: Baltimore, Maryland Hobbies: Running, dancing, shopping, hanging out with friends Favorite Sport: Track & Field Favorite Color: Navy Blue Favorite Food: Chicken Favorite Artist(s): Beyoncé, Jay Z, Drake, Future, J Cole., Nicki Minaj, August, Jeremiah.....i think that's it lol